i think if i only could i'll physically hug this album.

@темы: k-pop: epik high


ревизия по просьбе трудящихся :)

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битвы в топ-3 бесконечные :) но сейчас я настолько уверена, что место хичоля просто нерушимо :D
шивон покушается на топ-3, очень рада его прогрессу во всех смыслах во всех начинаниях, вообще везде.
йесон и кюхен меняются местами (йесон, за это повышение скажи спасибо кайте)
итук и ханген как две нерушимости.
галя огорчила меня генри (БАТ Ю А ОН ФАЙР, ХАУ КУЛД Ю), и в условиях жесткой конкуренции это оказало огромное влияние.

@темы: people: friend dumplings, k-pop: suju, ch-pop: han geng



@темы: k-pop: suju


lol, hana, you brought it on you

Chapters: 1/1
Rating: General Audiences
Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Jung Yunho/Kim Jaejoong
Characters: Jung Yunho, Shim Changmin, Kim Jaejoong, Kim Heechul

Чанмин играет на гитаре и пишет песни про трагические любови Кюхёна, Юнхо ударник и слишком много думает, для их небольшой рок-группы им нужен хотя бы басист. По крайней мере так считает Хичоль. Через десять лет они будут популярнее всех в этой стране.

@темы: people: friend dumplings, pairings: awesome squared, k-pop: jyj, k-pop: dbsk


title: words are shortcomings, ends and forever by catskilt
rating: pg
pairings: heechul/hankyung, heebum
word count: 4285 words
summary: one morning, heebum begins to talk.

title: what naturally follows
pairings: kyuhyun/zhou mi.
word count: 5280 words;
summary: Zhou Mi has never been a reliable narrator.
notes: БИ такая БИ, но я не поняла, что произошло

title: you know you're a crazy cat person when...
rating: pg
pairings: bandfic; Donghae-centric, implied Hankyung/Heechul
word count: 1,768
summary: There is one really bad downside to having nine lives, and that is that you have to lose one of them before you realise it, and the thing about dying? It tends to hurt.
notes: ♥ кроссоверт с чем-то, что я не знаю.

title: remedy
rating: G
pairings: Hanchul
word count:
summary: "For a moment he's tempted to give in to the pain and pass out, anything to get away from his body, broken and useless."
notes: хичоль в больнице после инцидента

title: call me when you get this
rating: G (gasp!) not really
pairings: Hanchul
summary: Once again, Heechul tries to fit himself into a suitcase.
notes: ханген собирается в китай.

title: the planets bend between us
rating: pg
pairings: Hanchul
summary: The first time Heechul has a fight with Hankyung is also the first time he shifts between alternate realities.

title: the bank of dad
rating: pg-13
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: Snippets from the bbyverse, where Hankyung and Heechul have a daughter.

title: i will keep the bad things from you
rating: pg
pairings: sungmin/ryeowook, hankyung/heechul
summary: This fits into my hanchul bbyverse. Sungmin and Ryeowook babysit.

title: and the shadow of the day
rating: pg-13
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: “I hate you,” Heechul says, but in his head it sounds more like I miss you so much it hurts

title: sj/tvxq 9.0 works
rating: pg
pairings: ханчоль и бэндфик мостли
summary: fic from the 9.0 kpopficwangst meme, the last being archived separately :)
notes: про ынхека, который сталкерит шивона в церкви И ВСЕ В КУРСЕ, КРОМЕ ШИВОНА, про итука, который бесстрашный лидер,

title: Things Behind the Sun (There is a Light That Never Goes Out); Half the Perfect World
rating: g
pairings: Hanchul
summary: 2 drabbles; if you use them too often, words start to lose their meaning

title: first times
rating: kindafail!NC17
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: a series of firsts, separate and combined.
notes: “You be in charge, big boy,” he says dryly, “That way if anything goes wrong it’s your fault.” ХАХАХАХАХА

title: rice candy melts in water
rating: ... g? i guess :)
pairings: donghae-centric, bandfic, kibum/donghae, slight indications of kyuhyun/zhou mi and hankyung/heechul
summary: the olfactory system never lies, and people never change
notes: О ДОНХЭ ♥ а мой любимый кибом злодей D:

title: leave your bones on the alabaster stones
rating: pg-15 pg-13
pairings: hankyung/heechul,
summary: before, during, after the lawsuit, Not in chronological order.
a/n: i don't think i've ever hated something so much. also written under extreme exhaustion and substance abuse \o//. not betaed.
notes: “We can,” says Hankyung, and he says it like a prayer.

title: hallelujah
rating: pg-13
pairings: hankyung/heechul
word count:
summary: thirty hanchul moments, not necessarily connected первая половина
notes: номер 12
“We should get married,” Hankyung blurts out, and the stylist gapes at him, hand at her heart and eyes sliding sideways look in horror at Heechul behind Hankyung.
“No!” Hankyung says, horrified, “not you of course, I meant—not that I wouldn’t want to marry you, well, I really don’t, actually. But like, someone else! They would be so lucky as to—Heechul?” He turns desperately around, begging for help, and Heechul rolls his eyes.
“You’re very pretty,” he says drily, “now get out.”

“Don’t cry,” Heechul says mockingly, “you’re also very pretty. Like a little princess. A pretty pink fairy princess. Of fail.”

title: faith is a synonym for undeserved love
pairings: hankyung/heechul, babyverse
summary: depression hurts everyone around it. no previous knowledge needed beyond "they have a daughter named Mei-Ha"
notes: very very very sad one. i also love the way their family functions.

title: Wanna Spoon For A Bit? by inuvampy and saki_hoshino
rating: R
genre: humor
pairings: Donghae/Eunhyuk, Kangin/Eeteuk, Siwon/Hangeng/Heechul, Kyuhyun/Zhou Mi/Sungmin, Yesung/Ryeowook and Shindong/Everyone
word count:
summary: Shindong has the urge.
notes: йесон из крипер энд итс эмэзинг

title: recently diverged
rating: r
pairings: kyuhyun/zhou mi
word count:
summary: a love song written upside down. au.
notes:the one where mimi is a songwriter

title: and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
rating: nc-17
pairings: Kyuhyun/Zhou Mi
word count: 6905 words;
summary: Zhou Mi is in a crisis of unrequited love. Kyuhyun plays Patapon.
notes: the one where qmi aren't subassan but nishikato for my pleasure

title: a life less ordinary
rating: T (PG?)
genre: angst, dark
pairings: Sungmin-centric
summary: Sungmin sees things
notes: didn't like it in a good way

title: the next generation by gyuche
rating: G
pairings: QMI, Hanchul
word count: 961
summary: Heechul defends his territory while Kyuhyun gets annoyed. Zhou Mi has a heart attack or smth.
notes: the one where Qmi are hanchul and heechul kind of reminds me of bitchy!koyama.

title: Gray by gyuche
rating: pg
genre: angst, romance
pairings: Heechul, Hankyung
summary: Heechul POV. my take on current events regarding his injury and absence.
notes: not the best but i like drama

title: cirque du freak
rating: pg-13
pairings: Henry, Zhou Mi/Kyuhyun
word count: 1425
summary: It's true: weird shit like this never happened in Canada.
notes: the best thing that happened since heechul and hangeng stopped being the best thing D: henri IS on fire :3

title: you spin me right round (1/2) (2/2)
pairings: Main QMi, side Hanchul
summary: Zhou Mi is a part-time Prada employee with too many dreams. Kyuhyun is a part-time model with absolutely none. Things, inevitably, are bound to happen.
notes: didn't quite like hanchul xD but otherwise it was to dramatic but likeable.

title: and you’ll never leave me
rating: pg-13
pairings: QMi, (no) hints of Kihae and Hanchul. Leaning towards band!fic.
summary: How Super Junior happens (or doesn’t) on a completely different timeline.
notes: didn't like it D: but kind of liked in anyway. so there.

title: third time's the charm
rating: pg-13
genre: Fluffish. Romance? Attempt at it?
pairings: QMi, side Hanchul
summary: In which Zhou Mi is too tall (says Kyuhyun) and Zhou Mi is too smiley (says Kyuhyun) and Zhou Mi makes Kyuhyun’s heart thump in weird ways (denies Kyuhyun) and Heechul is awesome (says Heechul)
notes: would have been probably better with only hints at hanchul, siriously 0_0 quite nice :)

title: The Internet is for Porn (or, 20 Things That Probably Wouldn't Happen If Super Junior Were in Fandom)
rating: pg-13
pairings: Various (Siwon/Hankyung/Heechul, Kibum/Donghae, Kyuhyun/Zhou Mi)
word count: 4882
summary: In which Eunhyuk is a moron, Siwon is judgemental, Eeteuk is a girl and no one really knows what's going on.
notes: still the best thing over there. it's like database is unavailable but suju.

title: kidnapping and other fun things
rating: G
genre: humor, weirdness
pairings: band!fic
word count:
summary: kangin stole a baby
notes: loved it.

rating: pg, pg-13
pairings: hangeng/heechul
summary: i just put itunes on shuffle and wrote whatever came to mind. there is no purpose to these other than to make her happy. these are unbeta'd because she is my beta and they're a surprise, so there are probably typos and such. THERE MAY BE ONE BASED ON DR. HORRIBLE'S SING-ALONG BLOG, AND ANOTHER ON LORD OF THE RINGS. :| there are no excuses for this crack. ENJOY, BB.
notes: the first one is still the best one ♥

title: sunday morning rain is falling
rating: pg-13
pairings: sungmin/ryeowook
summary: Fits into my hanchul bbyverse (just need to know they have a daughter named Mei-ha) and how minwook decides to jump on the bandwagon
notes: MEI-HA IS :heart:

title: four times hankyung got jealous [1][2][3][4]
rating: pg-13
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: like the title says, my friends, :)
notes: very very nice description of how heechul actually operates :)

title: unraveling with every word
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior (M), Kyuhyun/Zhou Mi
word count: 10,845
summary: AU. When Kyuhyun begins exchanging postcards with a student in China, he never expects to end up falling in love with his best friend.
notes: loved it almost at hello. it's almost the best qmi i've ever read

title: sj ma ma ma MAH
pairings: Hankyung
summary: This is a ficlet written forcivilized_era regarding Xiao S or whatever her name is wrapping herself around Hankyung like I (and a good chunk of Asia) would very much like to. Reeallly only makes sense if you've seen the photos. (omona and hangengaday should have them)
notes: DANGER!!DANGER!! shrieks his upstairs brain

title: this little light of mine
rating: pg
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: more hanchul babies, sequel to and your heart will go walking
notes: MY FAVOURITE VERSE EVER :3 mei-ha is the love

title: and your heart will go walking
rating: pg-13
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: Making the decision to have a child - it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking outside your body. HANCHUL BABIES. KINDA.
notes: hello, favourite fic.

title: oh the devil is a friend of mine
rating: strong pg-13
pairings: hankyung/heechul, (siwon/god)
summary: heechul tries to inspire a crisis of faith. Crack.
notes: “I,” says Siwon declaratively, “hate you both.”

title: like slow-dancing in a burning building
rating: pg
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: heechul wonders when he got married.
notes: “Heechul,” he says coaxingly, “come on, we can watch Big Bang on the television and mock their hair and outfits…”

title: Wordplay
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior (M), Hankyung/Heechul
word count: 1185
summary: Heechul posts to his cyworld.
notes: He wonders why he loves someone so incredibly dense.

title: may it be
rating: pg
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: the night before and morning of
notes: just ok.

title: Dear Post Secret
rating: pg
genre: gen
pairings: SME, various implied
word count: 785
summary: Fifteen secrets kept in SM Town. The things they can't - or don't know how - to say.
notes: (Not a secret)

title: getting used to getting by
rating: pg-13
pairings: Hankyung/Heechul, Siwon/Hankyung
summary: AU, Slice-of-life, Hankyung breaks up builds up and goes on.
notes: “I’m tired of being not unhappy”

title: Come Find Me
rating: pg-13
pairings: Hankyung/Heechul
summary: part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won't fall Short abstract scenes, written to a lovely song.
notes: i miss you more than i thought i could

title: dancing in cadillac light
rating: pg-13
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: roadtrip, future!fic, backwards chronological order
notes: ok?

title: The Case of the Disappearing Member
rating: pg-13
pairings: Super Junior (M), Kibum/Donghae, implied HanChul, QMi, others
word count: 3520
summary: Crack. There's a reason no one knows Kim Kibum's name these days, but that's going to change whether Kibum likes it or not. Featuring burritos, a basketball game, and betting pools.
warnings: light-hearted treatment of alcoholism
notes: No alcohol. No burritos. No Donghae. Kibum doesn't think he'll be a fan.

title: 100-word drabbles (collected)
notes: "superpowers", super junior, qmi
"what you meant to say", super junior, shihanchul, where hangeng can sudenly read minds

title: letting the cables sleep
rating: pg
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: the disintegration of them, lawsuit fic
notes: if i'm clinically depressed only. to make me even more depressed.

title: Now For Your Weekly Paradigm Shift
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior (M), Zhou Mi/Kyuhyun, ninja pairings
word count: 3250
summary: Henry is tired of the world shifting under his feet and messing with his head.
notes: HENRY, YOU'RE ON FIRE :3 favourite henry!fic

title: How The West Was Won
rating: pg-13
pairings: Hankyung/Heechul/Amber
word count: 9528
summary: Now he makes cakes. They all do.
notes: heechul!harry makes me sad because harry makes me sad but i still love it.

title: In the Grand Scheme of Things
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior (M), bandfic (some Kibum/Eunhyuk, some ninja)
word count: 2150
summary: Kibum grows out his hair and everyone wants to know why.
notes: "Why'd you send me this pic of some chick with a guitar?" Kangin asked Heechul. "She's pretty hot, though. D'you know her? Can you introduce me to her?"

title: Haters to the Left
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior, bandfic,
word count: 370
summary: Heechul makes a bold statement.
notes: His phone blinked a happy message at him: Heechul's brilliant ideas when drunk

title: we are yet expire
rating: pg-13
pairings: hankyung/heechul
summary: (vampire!au) Hankyung takes in a young, new vampire. Oooh lalala.
notes: it's VAMPIRE!AU. i only read it because i was bored and it's only here because donghae is hilarious

title: Five Super Junior Members Who Believed in God
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior (M), gen
word count: 1170
summary: Faith is different for everyone.
notes: oh heechul :3

title: I’m Going Crazy Crazy Baby
rating: pg-13
pairings: Super Junior, band!fic (various pairings)
word count: 1536
summary: Preparations for the third album might have gone...not at all like this.
notes: This piece of total and utter crack is inspired by these pictures and this video of the Sorry Sorry choreography. Love to black_goose for fangirling, idk, everything with me, and supporting Sungmin/SNSD. “I want to do a fucked-up rockstar look,” Heechul demanded.

title: Candles in Your Cake
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior, Donghae-centric
word count: 1085
summary: It's not the years in your life but the life in your years.
author notes: Korean ages (standard years + 1). May not be historically accurate.
notes: donghae is adorable.

title: Wherever You Will Go
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior (M), bandfic
word count: 1360
summary: Sometimes the distance between Korea and China feels infinite.
notes: meh, but the snippet at the end is BEAUTIFUL :3

title: Who Will Be Your Wings?
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior, Kibum-centric
word count: 1200
summary: Kibum wants to leave the group. But if you want to fly, who will be your wings?
notes: the fic is better than description but it's still boring. so unless you are kibum fan as me you shouldn't be interested.

title: At Least I Still Have You
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior (M)
word count: 2285
summary: gen, Reactions to and interactions of SJM.
notes: 5 and 6 :3 (and the comment after sixth)

title: Baby Blues
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior, Hankyung/Heechul
word count: 2250
summary: In Heechul's opinion, babies would be a lot more tolerable if they were adults. That is why he did not agree to this babysitting thing.
notes: it's hanchul with donghae's baby. OF COURSE I LOVE IT

title: Can't Resist This Thing Called Destiny
rating: pg-13
pairings: Super Junior, KangTeuk, HyukSu, YehWook, Shindong/SNSD, MinRy, QMi, ShiHanChul, KiHae
word count: 3280
summary: Meta-fic. What happens when cosmic forces decide SuJu need some helping along.
notes: it's stupid. i love stupid.

title: The Truth Behind the Bonamana MV
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior (M), bandfic
word count: 2335
summary: The origins of the set (reused) and the choreography (inexplicable): poor life decisions.
notes: Leeteuk lost MV budget in a bet. to SNSD.

title: all bets are off (it's a sure thing)
rating: pg
pairings: Super Junior (M), Siwon/Hankyung, Hankyung/Heechul
word count: 2860
summary: Siwon knows that friendships should never be competions. (But if they are, make sure you win.)
notes: IT'S SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD but i love it a lot, i'm sorry, siwon.

title: Take Your Favorite Fariy Tale and Tear it Up [1][2]
rating: PG/PG-13, R
pairings: Super Junior, gen + various
word count: 1000+1500
summary: wherein I villainize cute, sweet Super Junior members. :D
notes: LOL. EPIC LOL

title: of us, a history complete
rating: R (inexplicit sex), gen/romance/angst
pairings: Heechul-centric, the pairing is obvious once you start reading and once you understand it's my rec list
word count: ~1800
summary: Chronicling their lives after Super Junior.
notes: it was beautiful. also, hangeng dies (very old, but still)

title: Sway (in 4 parts)
rating: R
pairings: Han Geng/Amber, Heechul/Eunhyuk, Heechul/Hankyung
summary: Collisions, and the vehicles that carry them there.
notes: IT IS BEAUTIFUL. when i stop reading this stuff and start somehow reorganize it i'm going to create a post with "the best of the best aus" and it's going to be there.

title: A Thousand Times Over
rating: PG-13 for non-graphic violence
pairings: Heechul/Hankyung
word count: ~1600
summary: Heechul finds himself in the same scenario over and over again. It usually involves bleeding profusely.
notes: this fic stopped me being hurt. i'm not hurt any more and it's because of this fic, you see.

title: it's meta
summary: After all, love isn't a luxury. Love is getting damn lucky. And you love him. All the time. So here's your question: Why didn't he come after you?
notes: well, it's hanchul drabble, and it's wonderful

title: the ones we were
rating: pg
pairings: Eunhyuk-centric, Eunhyuk/Donghae, bandfic
word count: 7072
summary: Hyukjae wakes up in a facility. He's been in a car accident. au
notes: it's awful. it's a train wreck

title: Stolen
rating: g
pairings: Heechul/Hankyung
word count: 111 words of awesome

title: wip: the hanchul that wouldn't end
rating: pg
pairings: hanchul
summary: this has been my baby since late october. i wanted to finish it by the end of this year, but the whole thing with geng struck and i just never got around to it. basically it's supposed to focus on heechul and the various people in his life (jay, yunho, donghae, kibum, hankyung,...). i think i was overly ambitious, haha.
notes: it's wonderful even that way
warnings: out of order. just stuff i wrote and kept in the same document.

title: First Chance
rating: pg-13
pairings: Hanchul
word count: roughly 3300 words
summary: Hankyung convinces Heechul to go on a road trip.
notes: ♥ road trip and everything is fine
a/n: Milkshakes aside. AU in the sense that this never happened but pretty much same universe otherwise.

title: Raising Flags
rating: pg-13
pairings: Hankyung/Heechul, Siwon/Sungmin
word count: 8,607
summary: Two weeks later, Heechul recieved an e-mail from an address he didn't know, and opened it to realise that at some point, Sungmin had signed him up to an online dating site.
notes: the one where hangeng loves doctor who.

title: the line between good and evil is a thin line indeed
rating: PG? PG-13 if language is an issue.
pairings: Big Bang gen, really. But G-Dragon/Seungri at the end, kind of.
summary: “We’re here to discuss what kind of sexual favors Seungri had to perform for the Powers That Be to get super powers and what kind of blasphemy it is that the magnae – the magnae – is cooler than the leader.” People get superpowers. People who are not Jiyong. This is a problem.
notes: For gdheartri's contest about Big Bang having superpowers. Basically, this is a superpowers AU! You have been warned.

title: Still Ashamed Though
rating: pg
pairings: G-Dragon/Seungri, the rest of Big Bang.
word count:
summary: In which Jiyong is not a rapist and Seungri does not have a crush on anyone. (Only one of the above statements is true.)
notes: summary sucks in a creepy way, but the fic is awesome. kind of :D

title: shameless, or not
rating: pg-13
pairings: G-Dragon/Seungri
word count: 4178
summary: This is Jiyong, and this is Seungri. Jiyong doesn't know what he's doing anymore, and Seungri just doesn't know, period.

title: the path of least resistance
rating: pg
pairings: g-dragon/cl
word count: 1829
summary: i heard the weather has cleared up from the west.
notes: aww

title: Love is blind, and optimistically selective the rest of the time
rating: pg-13
genre: Fluff, romance, humor
pairings: Hanchul, minor Kyumin and Eunhae
summary: AU. In which Hankyung and Heechul fail at dating.
notes: that's awesome. plain and simple awesome.

title: something's gotta give
pairings: hanchul
word count: 1.7k
summary: "I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - marilyn monroe
notes: "I went into your room, and all your clothes were gone. Then I checked the door and all your shoes were still there. Silly."

title: Hankyung's Revenge
rating: PG-13 for mentions of violence and animal cruelty
pairings: Hankyung, Hankyung/Heechul
word count: 468
summary: What does Hankyung have against Yesung?

title: in the spaces where you can't see
rating: pg
pairings: Hankyung/Heechul
word count: 424
summary: Angsty, thinky Hanchul drabble. What if Heechul had never met Hankyung?
A/N: Partly a continuation of fic meme. I would like to continue/edit this, perhaps, but there is only so much Hanchul sadness I can take.
notes: If Heechul had never met Hankyung, he’d be just as happy, if not more, he tells himself, because you can’t miss something you never had.

title: Physical Therapy
rating: nc-17
pairings: Heechul/Hankyung
word count: ~3600
summary: Heechul believes in lying to his shrink. He's an awful liar.
notes: fail!nc-17 is the best kind!

title: we are vindicated (and selfish)
rating: pg-13
pairings: Super Junior; band-fic, various pairings
summary: A day in the life of Super Junior’s Facebook feed.
notes: well, does it need saying?

title: Worst Case Scenarios, And How To Fail At Avoiding Them by papered
rating: pg
pairings: Henry
word count: 1622
summary: "Super Junior M is going to do a North American concert next month," management informed them one day.
notes: Henry isn’t sure how they can do "more" without actually having sex on the stage.

title: Fractals [AU]
rating: r for one brief mention of sex
pairings: kyuhyun
word count: 4528
summary: Kyuhyun turns music down in favor of math. He still manages to meet Zhou Mi. Sort of.
notes: really sad one.

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запись создана: 27.11.2011 в 14:31

@темы: pairings: awesome squared, orgy: 3 of them, me and my pillow, links: fics, k-pop: suju, k-pop: dbsk, k-pop: big bang, k-pop: 2ne1, ch-pop: han geng


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давно не делала ревизию.
последние шесть мест очено условно, впрочем. сложно понять, на кого мне плевать больше. ай дженерали лайк зем ол.
в общем, гораздо интереснее, что у меня снова приход хангена в топ-3.

@темы: k-pop: suju


what i believe in is that
even if we fucked up everything between us
you are still one of the most important people in my life
and i see you in strangers
and i remember things that we used to hold dear
and when i visit places we used to visit
i think of you
and it stopped hurting
but it hasn't stopped being dear to me

and i write it here
not because it suddenly hurts and i need to talk about that
but because i want to use it as a fucking reminder
that time does heal
and it heals me, so it heals others too

and that is what i want for all the people hurting right now

@темы: k-pop: suju, k-pop: jyj, k-pop: dbsk, ch-pop: han geng, people: friend dumplings


i wonder why it happens.
my past goes away almost w\o any kind of regret. i'm moving on with my life, it takes years, but eventually it passes by.
the songs that used to hurt now don't
the things that used to remind me of things and people and places now don't
now i am sad not because it saddens me but because it doesn't
i kind of miss the emotions now, not people.
and all of a sudden i miss people i didn't think i would
and al of a sudden i am quite ready to lose things.
big things
great things
i am open to a heratbreak
but right now i am waiting here for this thing to pass by

@темы: pairings: awesome squared, k-pop: davichi, people: friend dumplings


let's talk big space objects.
no, i don't mean heechul.
weeeeeeeell. i do mean heechul, but not really.

i can't let go. i'm sorry i can't.
you say 13 stars and i say mimi is a fucking sun. but i couldn't stop thinking about henry.

henry is a meteor.
yeah, like in not a star way. but you know what? at the end of a day (literally) you watch out for those ones. you watch out for those small things burning in an atmosphere, and you wish upon them, and all the boring stars that just hang on out there (yes, yesung, it's about you, obviously, mister the boring one *heart*) have nothing on this moment. when henry shines, he shines like no one's business. not even shinee's. sorry, bad pun day

mimi is a sun. what? it's worth repeating. mimi is a sun and you can't help it. you may say that it's not a real star, because stars are supposed to be on the night sky... well, you may, but you may also shut up, because actually mimi is a star that matters the most. think about it when it's freezing outside. yeah, like in winter. yeah, the world without mimi is this times infinity.

kibum is not a star, actually.
kibum is pluto. and you may think whatever you want, kibum doesn't exactly care. seriously, as if it changes anything. he is up there just the way it was when it was a planet.

and you, my dear, are a black hole. you suck the fun out of fandom.

@темы: meh: meta, k-pop: suju



дорогой ханген, надеюсь, ты очень ценишь то время, что моя чудесная ники проводит в твоей стране.
потому что иначе ты неблагодарный болван D:

@темы: ch-pop: han geng, people: friend dumplings


знаете эту сказку про то, как много детишек ушли учиться к колдуну? и у них было одно условие - кто в последний день выйдет последним из ворот, тот достанется колдуну мвахаха.
итак, суджу пришли к ли су ману и он обучил их всему, что знал сам, но поставил перед ними одно условие, кто последний уйдет из здания сме, тот не уйдет из здания сме мвахахаха. и все начали грустить, потому что никто не хотел быть последним, и поэтому все стали меньше общаться с другими, потому что это было соревнование в итоге и никто не хотел соревноваться с друзьями.
и тогда итук собрал их и сказал им, как настоящий лидер, что они не должны волноваться, в последний день он пропустит всех вперед себя.
и все были потрясены его благородством, и хичоль сказал, что он придурок, но так и порешили.
и вот настал последний день, и они выходили из офиса ли су мана, и итук выполнил свое общение и пропустил вперед всех, и он хотел выйти уже сам, но тут ли су ман сказал ему:
- куда? ты же последний!
на что итук улыбнулся и сказал:
- да вот же за мной идет моя попа, ее и забирай.
и ли су ман забрал попу итука. так она и исчезла.

@темы: k-pop: suju


*здесь должна была быть картинка с хичолем, but i got angry at his face*

всякий раз, когда я вся такая - who even needs suju anyway? подлый хичоль атакует меня с какой-нибудь стороны, и я снова думаю: ох, but oppa is so hamlet, idek, how can i leave him alone!
i mean, kibum is my ultimate favourite, and hangeng is my second best choice, but i can leave them alone, because they are frankly not cute. and not openly sad. (when hangeng is openly sad, my heart kind of bleads in a not fun way, so let's not talk openly sad hangeng). и я люблю их просто так, я вообще не знаю, чем там кибом сейчас занимается и жив ли он вообще (much like with my je boys, you see), про хангена я иногда посматриваю новости, потому что почему-то никто вокруг меня не говорит про его слухи про теток (БАБНИК :heart: ), про его концерты, дурацких фанаток, прекрасного менеджера и миллион других вещей. я даже читала его сообщество раньше. пока он не победил в своем суде, хахаха, и мне стало скучно :D
с хичолем я не могу остановиться. i, like, always need to know that he's kind of alright.

@темы: k-pop: suju, ch-pop: han geng


(Dad, he remembers saying once, years ago when he was younger and the two of them had spoken more, I need to show you something. And he took his father’s hand and pulled him over the corner of the room and had him touch the corner where two walls and a floor branched out into the living room. This is x, y, and z, and this is the plane of our reality. We’re all graphs. Kyuhyun’s father had looked down and half-smiled and asked him if he’d read that somewhere, it was beautiful, and the man had completely missed the point. Ever since then, the silence of misunderstanding has been more comforting than the verbal confirmation that Kyuhyun is desperately alone with his thoughts.)

@темы: k-pop: suju, quotes: out of context


hello, top-2, where did you leave heechul and jay?

@темы: ch-pop: han geng, k-pop: suju, pictures: the lazy ones


because i need to save it :D

[22:47:28] Фудзи-сан: окей, i've reread your "to be deleted" hanchul. let's talk au
[22:47:42] hitamyu: lol whut? 0_0
[22:47:43] hitamyu: which hanchul
[22:47:57] Фудзи-сан: you
[22:48:00] Фудзи-сан: and your fics
[22:48:03] Фудзи-сан: i'm not even
[22:48:15] Фудзи-сан: the one where heechul thinks geography
[22:49:59] Фудзи-сан: so, just imagine. spy au. the one like in Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy
[22:50:31] Фудзи-сан: where hangeng is a spy
[22:51:01] Фудзи-сан: being departed to china
[22:51:12] Фудзи-сан: like all those russian spies, you know
[22:51:17 | Edited 22:53:12] Фудзи-сан: from US
[22:52:01 | Edited 22:54:41] Фудзи-сан: and he is greeted the same way in china as those *spies* in russia.
[22:52:13] Фудзи-сан: like he's not REALLY a spy
[22:52:42] Фудзи-сан: but he was asked by certain organisations to look for certain things
[22:54:01] hitamyu: aga
[22:54:09] hitamyu: and heechul?
[22:55:43] Фудзи-сан: and heechul is his, well, secret lover or something.
[22:56:02 | Edited 23:13:03] Фудзи-сан: and to make things worse
[22:56:18] Фудзи-сан: he could be actualy involved in some top secret stuff
[22:56:50 | Edited 22:58:04] Фудзи-сан: and hangeng had no idea heechul was involved in such things
[22:56:52] Фудзи-сан: i mean
[22:57:52] hitamyu: from other country?
[22:57:56] Фудзи-сан: they met each other in university
[22:58:01] hitamyu: (almost typed "from other universe")
[22:58:18] Фудзи-сан: from korea
[22:58:20] Фудзи-сан: yes
[22:58:30] Фудзи-сан: hangeng studied and later worked in korea
[22:58:56] Фудзи-сан: and chinese secret organisation asked him for some help
[22:59:19] Фудзи-сан: and he, well, didn't say yes but didn't exactly say no, because he was a dancer
[23:02:23] Фудзи-сан: and well didn't exactly had (or he thought so) any real way to secret information
[23:03:51] Фудзи-сан: and heechul thinks that hangeng knew about him working for government and that everything they had was a play
[23:06:41] Фудзи-сан: and hangeng feels played and he lost everything, and now he has only china and they make him somewhat a national hero and he wonders how does it look for all people he loved in korea. but because he's such a hero over there he is super popular and makes lots of money dancing
[23:06:45] Фудзи-сан: and people love him
[23:06:58 | Edited 23:12:02] Фудзи-сан: and he can live with his parents and so on
[23:07:09] Фудзи-сан: and well, it's his country
[23:07:31] Фудзи-сан: and he feels a little bit betrayed too, cause he had no idea about heechul's work
[23:14:23] Фудзи-сан: but at least he has no questions over heechul's love to him where heechul does.
[23:15:56] hitamyu: D:
[23:16:18] Фудзи-сан: and i think that siwon was an government agent (they all were friends, and siwon was the one who got heechul involved into this secret stuff) who actually discovered such an offer was made to hangeng.
[23:17:41] hitamyu: DDD:
[23:17:57] hitamyu: siwon will feel the most terrible out of all
[23:18:08] Фудзи-сан: and it was kept a secret for a bit, but later korea needed something from china or their agent over there was discovered and they needed someone to be swapped and the government knew that hangeng wasn't actually a spy
[23:20:53] Фудзи-сан: so it was a safe choice to announce him to be a spy
[23:21:30] Фудзи-сан: and YES
[23:21:38] Фудзи-сан: siwon will feel terrible
[23:21:47] Фудзи-сан: because he knew for a fact
[23:21:54] Фудзи-сан: that hangeng hasn't done a thing
[23:22:29] Фудзи-сан: and he felt terrible because he had to spy for hangeng
[23:23:11] Фудзи-сан: and later he felt terrible for questioning him (when he found out that hangeng wasn't spying, or, well, was really GOOD at this spying thing)
[23:23:44] hitamyu: saaaaaaaaaad
[23:23:51] hitamyu: very very sad
[23:24:58] Фудзи-сан: and later he felt even more terrible, when hangeng talked to him about this crap when he was being departed (and hangeng didn't know siwon was an agent at the time and because of that siwon felt even more terrible)
[23:25:53] Фудзи-сан: and during this talk siwon found out that hangeng wasn't an awesome spy, he was confused and very miserable and he loved heechul and loved siwon and others and even korea
[23:26:13] Фудзи-сан: and so in the end
[23:26:22 | Edited 23:28:27] Фудзи-сан: siwon knew all the parts of the story
[23:26:33] Фудзи-сан: and couldn't tell anyone
[23:27:18] Фудзи-сан: but i want a happy end :D
[23:28:58] Фудзи-сан: but i have no idea how to make it believable at all.
[23:29:01] Фудзи-сан: i mean
[23:31:18] Фудзи-сан: i can have heechul stop working for government and after a while when he can go travel overseas, he can go to china.
[23:32:41] Фудзи-сан: or, better, i can have hangeng SUE something :D well, i mean, he wasn't spying, he was asked to, but he never actually did any of spying. and, well, he's good at suing :D
[23:32:58] Фудзи-сан: and i can make him somewhat win
[23:39:45] Фудзи-сан: and i hope they wouldn't be too old by this time, lol

@темы: quotes: out of context, people: friend dumplings, meh: meta, k-pop: suju, ch-pop: han geng


heechul is my favourite kind of character gone real. и не зря в суджушной версии мамы хичоль быр барни, потому что он настолько же странно cartoonный. так что я невольно складываю его в кучу персонажей, а не риал пипл, невольно линкую его с героями книжек (в моей голове эта связь преобразуется в "блин, сыграл бы он в экранизации"), мультиков, а не людей.

@темы: k-pop: suju


эм. я думаю, что если заменить шейн хичолем в эл ворлд, ничего особенно странного с сюжетом не произойдет.
*прочитала статью на вики* о боже, я не хотела думать эту мысль

@темы: k-pop: suju


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