the first (and the last) time heechul tried online!sex with han geng, han geng was very confused. he asked siwon what heechul was talking about and showed him the log. siwon cried and prayed for a week.
суббота, 24 декабря 2011
четверг, 22 декабря 2011
the barman is in her late twenties and she smiles at him warmly and makes him another cup of coffee.
- are you chinese? - she asks while cleaning glasses, and he nods.
- got divorced recently, didn't you? - she says in sloppy chinese, but hangeng is surprised nonetheless.
- yes, - he says, chuckling a little,- you can say that.
- there are lots of guys like you. it's a good place for recovering, - she never stops smiling and she leaves him to take some orders from new customers.
- yeah, - he says slowly. - seven hard years.
and he thinks of heechul, he thinks of angry kyuhyun, and he thinks that it's really like a divorce with kids and stuff after all.
- are you chinese? - she asks while cleaning glasses, and he nods.
- got divorced recently, didn't you? - she says in sloppy chinese, but hangeng is surprised nonetheless.
- yes, - he says, chuckling a little,- you can say that.
- there are lots of guys like you. it's a good place for recovering, - she never stops smiling and she leaves him to take some orders from new customers.
- yeah, - he says slowly. - seven hard years.
and he thinks of heechul, he thinks of angry kyuhyun, and he thinks that it's really like a divorce with kids and stuff after all.
he's afraid of letting this anger go. he thinks that if the feeling of betrayal is gone, than all the feelings of past happiness are surely gone too.
why wouldn't they be?
why wouldn't they be?
среда, 21 декабря 2011
пожалуй, у меня по поводу всех драматических пейрингов должны быть фики про то, как они _договорились_ устроить драму ради поддержания интереса. 
вторник, 20 декабря 2011
Give me a korean fandom and I'll name:
Favorite character:
Least favorite character:
Character with the best hair:
Character with the best eyes:
Character with the best smile:
Character I'd most want to kiss:
Character I'd most likely fuck:
Character I'd make lunch for:
Character I'd go singing in the rain with:
Character I'd go shopping with:
Character I'd go dancing with:
Character I'd take over the world with:
Character I most want to see more of:
Favorite pairing:
f(x) - o god, i know only 3 of the girls
suju, it's kind of easy
bigbang
dbsk
they go by the name 2NE1 of YG
davichi
Favorite character:
Least favorite character:
Character with the best hair:
Character with the best eyes:
Character with the best smile:
Character I'd most want to kiss:
Character I'd most likely fuck:
Character I'd make lunch for:
Character I'd go singing in the rain with:
Character I'd go shopping with:
Character I'd go dancing with:
Character I'd take over the world with:
Character I most want to see more of:
Favorite pairing:
f(x) - o god, i know only 3 of the girls
suju, it's kind of easy
(kibum has a perfect smile. but then again, i wouldn't go for anything less hehe)
bigbang
dbsk
they go by the name 2NE1 of YG
davichi
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понедельник, 19 декабря 2011
but i feel like i am judged and i don't like being judged when i haven't even done something worth judgment 
воскресенье, 18 декабря 2011
Seoul was as Kibum had remembered it, but Donghae - Donghae was more incredible than Kibum had remembered.
i like your nose.
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two of nine songs for two of nine boys that grew up and gave up
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two of nine songs for two of nine boys that grew up and gave up
kyuhyun isn't bad at maths at all. He knows that negative things are ok, you can multiply them by other negative things and get something positive (if you're into positive things). It's zero you have problems with, no matter how hard you try to change it into something, you'll always get nothing.
but sometimes, when he is really tired and when he feels ill, he thinks that zero isn't that bad. he thinks that the fact people don't care isn't that bad at all.
but sometimes, when he is really tired and when he feels ill, he thinks that zero isn't that bad. he thinks that the fact people don't care isn't that bad at all.
четверг, 15 декабря 2011
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that's the time and place to mock cl's english
(i love you i love you i love you)
ALSO BOM
я уже жду тебя, новая девчачья группа, которая умеет петь :3
YG is a happy place for me.
it's a place where it's, well, not so korean.
and when i say 'korean' i mean 'emotional'
idol business is absolutely not about selling music. it's about selling personalities and feelings. it's a market of emotions and that's exactly why we love idols so much. because they are open and they understand that they are not singers but idols. of course they sing, and some of them do it especially nice and awesome and you think that they are better than singers or something like that. but it's not their job. their job is to entertain us with their personalities and create some kind of bond so we will feel included. and all the fanservice we are getting is to give us the idea of an idol in a relationship and so we can project this type of relationship on our lifes and so on and so on and so on
i'm sorry i'm tired and i want to sleep and it's affecting me
and i feel like i am reciting a boring book
my point is i love yg because they send me the wrong package. they kind of suck at this idol thing. well, not really, because they have lots of fanservice but they do suck at making it intimate and precious and cute and lots of things, important for fans of other agencies.
i see YG as an agency. as a working place, where you do SELL something.
it's not easy to say that you sell emotions, because it kind of makes all those emotions fake. that's why everyone is trying to make it as real as possible. to stop it look as a shop and make it look as a home.
we love you, you love us, that's why we, idols, are receiving your money and your gifts and your love: because we love you back, we love you. you, fans, make us, idols, happy.
yg sucks at it.
they do. their image is too cool to make me feel at home.
so they sell me this awesome corporate feeling and this awesome comradeship between yg's idols.
they kind of tell me: WE WORK TOGETHER, WE ARE NOT BEST FRIENDS, WE ARE OK, WE ARE GOOD TEAM MATES, but we are together because of work.
they tell me: we are professionals and a we are good at what we do.
they tell my inner insecure girl, tired of drama: we will not break your heart, because we are colleagues and there's life for us beside all of this.
and for me it's really important. they tell me to enjoy their work with them and not be afraid of, i don't know, CL moving to china next day TO STAY THERE FOREVER. because it's kind of ok. well, if she wants to.
it may not be this way for any of you, really. anything is optional. you may care so much it breaks your heart every time GD is looking at some one who's not Dara or something.
but for me YG is a happy place, because they don't make me a family. they keep the distance, and i love them for this.
(and i love others for making me feel like a family, it's not that i hate families)
it's a place where it's, well, not so korean.
and when i say 'korean' i mean 'emotional'
idol business is absolutely not about selling music. it's about selling personalities and feelings. it's a market of emotions and that's exactly why we love idols so much. because they are open and they understand that they are not singers but idols. of course they sing, and some of them do it especially nice and awesome and you think that they are better than singers or something like that. but it's not their job. their job is to entertain us with their personalities and create some kind of bond so we will feel included. and all the fanservice we are getting is to give us the idea of an idol in a relationship and so we can project this type of relationship on our lifes and so on and so on and so on
i'm sorry i'm tired and i want to sleep and it's affecting me
and i feel like i am reciting a boring book
my point is i love yg because they send me the wrong package. they kind of suck at this idol thing. well, not really, because they have lots of fanservice
but they do suck at making it intimate and precious and cute and lots of things, important for fans of other agencies.i see YG as an agency. as a working place, where you do SELL something.
it's not easy to say that you sell emotions, because it kind of makes all those emotions fake. that's why everyone is trying to make it as real as possible. to stop it look as a shop and make it look as a home.
we love you, you love us, that's why we, idols, are receiving your money and your gifts and your love: because we love you back, we love you. you, fans, make us, idols, happy.
yg sucks at it.
they do. their image is too cool to make me feel at home.
so they sell me this awesome corporate feeling and this awesome comradeship between yg's idols.
they kind of tell me: WE WORK TOGETHER, WE ARE NOT BEST FRIENDS, WE ARE OK, WE ARE GOOD TEAM MATES, but we are together because of work.
they tell me: we are professionals and a we are good at what we do.
they tell my inner insecure girl, tired of drama: we will not break your heart, because we are colleagues and there's life for us beside all of this.
and for me it's really important. they tell me to enjoy their work with them and not be afraid of, i don't know, CL moving to china next day TO STAY THERE FOREVER. because it's kind of ok. well, if she wants to.
it may not be this way for any of you, really. anything is optional. you may care so much it breaks your heart every time GD is looking at some one who's not Dara or something.
but for me YG is a happy place, because they don't make me a family. they keep the distance, and i love them for this.
(and i love others for making me feel like a family, it's not that i hate families
) 
я в вашем фандоме, читаю ваши фанфики, шиплю ваших мальчиков, и даже с девочками
вторник, 13 декабря 2011
ахахаха, корейский фандом!!!
а я все не могла понять, что мне это напоминает.
по крайней мере я перестала ненавидеть этот дизайн.
small blessings.
small blessings.
понедельник, 12 декабря 2011
[22:35:45] Маки: вот тебе множество Сынри
because han geng likes to talk about his heart
no one wants to be in dbsk fandom. no one wants to have their heart ripped in two slightly different in size and a bit dysfunctional parts.
except well they do.
it's not insane it's not even almost every time about the love of drama. some people just do love the boys and their hearts just fell in love and didn't plan to break but couldn't resist.
but it is mostly about the drama. people poked their hearts with this story and cried their hearts out and it's because they need to feel things. because life is grey and weather is duh and a city is fast and boring and it's insane but they need to feel alive.
it's not that they don't love the boys. they are just really really bored out of their minds and the drama is interesting at last.
but they do wait for happy end.
the song of hate towards sme is a part of the story but no one wants this kind of ending.
news fandom is in never ending wonderful sorrow.
it's random boys who kind of hate and love each other. and it's random girls who still loves them no matter what.
and it's nine going eight going seven and almost immediately six just to stop being and then stop being stopped and go on and be beautiful and hopeful and to be four in the end. well this-moment-end. it's never ending so you never know.
it's not even two pieces of a heart. it's getting little pieces cut off one (two) at a time and feel them and love them and hate them all a little bit because you kind of have nine little hearts and it's not a nice feeling.
it's less dramatic. it's not intense enough it's for those who love slow songs of lost friendships of letting go of loved ones and meeting them ten years latter while riding a bus. it's about awkward talks and lost chances. it's about dreams that probably just weren't meant to be fulfilled.
suju is for those who is a fan of dramedy. the moment things start being too intense you switch comedy on and you cry and laugh and like that it's not clear any more what are your feelings. life couldn't get better so it got worse.
there are lots of people there there are fifteen people there who will step in if someone steps out and it's wonderful if you think of it. but there are fifteen people full of unhappy stories to tell and you kind of love them and you kind of love them completely not just the good parts. and when one leaves there still fourteen people around. and you think that's all right you think that one fifteens is a small part. it's even less than seven percent, it's even less than a commission you pay buying their new dvds or calendars or something. well you don't think that you're a little bit too good of a fan to think that but you are really happy to have just one out and still fourteen in. it's not like dbsk fandom you tell yourself at night.
suju fandom is for those who is even less prepared to lose and wants to reduce their risks of being hurt by investing in a variety of assets.
i don't know if it works. you kind of lose less but you kind of lose more.
no one wants to be in dbsk fandom. no one wants to have their heart ripped in two slightly different in size and a bit dysfunctional parts.
except well they do.
it's not insane it's not even almost every time about the love of drama. some people just do love the boys and their hearts just fell in love and didn't plan to break but couldn't resist.
but it is mostly about the drama. people poked their hearts with this story and cried their hearts out and it's because they need to feel things. because life is grey and weather is duh and a city is fast and boring and it's insane but they need to feel alive.
it's not that they don't love the boys. they are just really really bored out of their minds and the drama is interesting at last.
but they do wait for happy end.
the song of hate towards sme is a part of the story but no one wants this kind of ending.
news fandom is in never ending wonderful sorrow.
it's random boys who kind of hate and love each other. and it's random girls who still loves them no matter what.
and it's nine going eight going seven and almost immediately six just to stop being and then stop being stopped and go on and be beautiful and hopeful and to be four in the end. well this-moment-end. it's never ending so you never know.
it's not even two pieces of a heart. it's getting little pieces cut off one (two) at a time and feel them and love them and hate them all a little bit because you kind of have nine little hearts and it's not a nice feeling.
it's less dramatic. it's not intense enough it's for those who love slow songs of lost friendships of letting go of loved ones and meeting them ten years latter while riding a bus. it's about awkward talks and lost chances. it's about dreams that probably just weren't meant to be fulfilled.
suju is for those who is a fan of dramedy. the moment things start being too intense you switch comedy on and you cry and laugh and like that it's not clear any more what are your feelings. life couldn't get better so it got worse.
there are lots of people there there are fifteen people there who will step in if someone steps out and it's wonderful if you think of it. but there are fifteen people full of unhappy stories to tell and you kind of love them and you kind of love them completely not just the good parts. and when one leaves there still fourteen people around. and you think that's all right you think that one fifteens is a small part. it's even less than seven percent, it's even less than a commission you pay buying their new dvds or calendars or something. well you don't think that you're a little bit too good of a fan to think that but you are really happy to have just one out and still fourteen in. it's not like dbsk fandom you tell yourself at night.
suju fandom is for those who is even less prepared to lose and wants to reduce their risks of being hurt by investing in a variety of assets.
i don't know if it works. you kind of lose less but you kind of lose more.
четверг, 08 декабря 2011
i love naming diaries after songs :3
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- Don't do it, - says Jaejoong and he smiles sadly, when Yamapi tells him about leaving NEWS. - You think it's worth it and that the others would understand. And, probably, it really is worth it and the others will understand, but everything will be so awkward afterwards.
*
There was a period in Heechul's life when there was only one thought on his mind at all. He thought, "I made something beautiful and you didn't even look."
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Хичоль едет в гости к Хангену на каникулах после пятого курса. Ханген показывает ему китайских драконов, мама Хангена готовит им потрясающие пельмени и даже покупает домой кимчи, чтобы Хичоль совсем не скучал по Корее. Он не скучает. Он возвращается домой и скучает по Китаю - по дню драконьих лодок, по разноцветным фейерверкам, по темным глазам Хангена и его мягкому дурацкому корейскому, на котором он объяснял Хичолю, что происходит.